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Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Frustration

Well, those who close with me will understand what dilemma that i facing now.
I feel weak for once and unsecure bout the future. I hit myself that back to reality. I seriously to make magic happen again. I had to be desprate, risk-taker and fiecre if i want to secure myself. I don't believe it why good things always follow by bad things. Guess my past life owe him a lot. I would rather go there but how i going to cope when i am there. Follow my uncle's bold move perhaps? Too bold, for his time is different. But i will fight to the end and Nth will stop, ur words of cowardice doesn't scare me. Still sumtimes i feel i muz realize reality but i will fight for my own destiny.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Get TAG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by Juting.


1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
* I would bring out my new lover hot sexier than her and make out in front of her. Tell my ex lover i bought her a new luggage and brought along her stuff. After that, i will say "we break up la, so here ur stuff and my farewell a big luggage, dun bother coming back i juz change the lock of "MY" apartment."

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
* i am in a yacht just sailing out of Venice wit someone i love.


3. Will you change in attitude(or other things) to comfort your lover?
* See first, depends whether she is a bitch. Still i have many vices. Yup.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
* 50mil for scholarship fund. 200 mil for my own charity foundation of children future in third world countries. another 200mil for propeties around the world. Build business empire? Give parents 20mil.Bought a vineyard and roman villa. Beside my kids education.

5. Pretty but fat/Ungly but slim, which one would you prefer?
* Pretty fat la.Fat is now the trend. Skinny guys look gay la.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
* Being loved by someone is more blessed, feel being appreciated.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
* U think le...of course no la...mah like tat 50 years siao ar. I not tat emo and love in this real world don't last forever.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
* I will shakehand wit her bf and say apparently u r the best man.I hope i become better person next time.

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
* wit Megan Fox in adult film la

10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
* Ya, why not...frens mah.....got a lot of thing to catch up.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
* Have his own investment firm, driving a M6 go back home. feel regret going back hom coz wife complain about my mum and my mum have a catfight wit my wife. Everybody hearing tehy complain each other.

12. What's your fear?
* i fear i disapointed everyone.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
* funny, open minded, sophiscated, fashionable, finally a person u can talk about salvadore ferragamo or cool cars. good counsellor.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
* Single and rich, imagine old 50 years have a chick 20 years old. Still can bang man. U single uncommited and have all those family problems.

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
* go pee, drink water and go back to sleep.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
* Depends whether she a bitch or not. If she good, i surely will anything.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
* why not take both? Sure both can understand.Double the cost better dun la, one who truely love me.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
* dun step on my head second time.

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
* having relationship, have someone to talk about my problems and nvr feel lonely.

20.List 6 people to tag
* Kimberly Ho, Daniel Harris, Mr Lawrence, Wee Kiat, Sean, DQ

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Glasses

Ray-Ban Aviator Sunglasses damn cool. I loving it.Imagine wear a stripe suits lean on a bugatti veryon behind a private jet as background with sunset mood.Damn cool, but no money. Dream also useless.Its better set as a goal then, i have to work my ass off.Sorry butt for your suffering.

During my August break, I went to pelangi to change my old glasses.I saw the aviator sunglasses.550 above man, my mum is like going to faint if i wan to buy this.After that, i saw Aunty Ann wearing a ray ban aviator orange lense. 200 ringgit cheap compare to my dream one.when i try hers on, guess what my sis said, like apek in the sundry shop. Do i look that old????? Still, Aunty Ann say like a rock star sunglasses.But i look like an old man. SOB...SOB

Talking about changing glasses i have a new pair. Well u guys who know me surely know i wear a apek and nerdy frameless glasses.My mum asking me to change like my bro's full frame. Thinking about it, i want more mature and sophiscated glasses. So i ask the guy for hugo boss glasses. The guy is like wth, asking me " R u sure Hugo Boss?" My mum say like hear hugo boss, i wan to fall.Hugo Boss's glasses almost all the same style. Hugo boss truly boss.

End Up my mum not satisfied with hugo boss. She said i look like a old man. Oh god, she prefer espirit. I wonder is the looks or the price. A hugo boss cost about minimum RM 600.Still its very classy.Might as well take the espirit glasses, better than nothing away. Btter earn my own money. Unit trust?? anyone interested with me?





Monday, July 21, 2008

I Miss U so much.



Hey Gramps.....it have been almost a month since i got the news bout ur surgery.When i got news, i thought u able to pull it throught like u always have.When i reached the hospital, i was shocked tat Aunty Tracy, Uncle Freddie and grandma was crying.I knew sumthing worse have came up.....when i gotta into the room.Seeing ur condition like tat, well i was shocked.I remember wat diease u ever get...u able to pull it throught.It seem tat my invicible gong gong succumb to death.Seeing my cousin, Arafat n my Aunty Julia in the room try to hold back the tears..i thought he have hopes left.When the doc declare he is brain death there no chance.......i was.....my only regrets is not able to spend more time wit u grandpa.Popo can't accept tat u r gone....so come to worst tat we have to pull the plug.Still i wish i able to talk to u at the last moment......At ur house in Alor Star, on ur death bed the last breath pain me in my memories.I dun wan to see u gone juz like tat.

I always thought u able to live for a long time due to ur good health.Well u go too fast for us to say goodbye.Guess this life...there always the unexpected.Some of ur frens came n dun believe tat u gone so fast.As u always smile...always strong n speak wit a strong manner.I won't forget wat u had taught me.I shall remember n i won't let u to be dissapointed.

Since back at KL, at Mandarin Oriental's ur favourite chinese res and ur favourite peking duck........its wont be the same without u.U always lecture the way my hair, my clothes n my lifestyle.Then i suddenly realized wat u mean.....now i understand wat made man remember or to appreciate its by deceisive event.

I can see in grandma's eyes how much tat she love u.How much tat u care bout the family n love it.When i lost u grandpa, i feel there no hero in my life.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Ballnight

Ballnight is on 30th june....kl sentral hilton 130 per ticket.At least i believe my cousin's years is cheaper.Damn exp n hardly ppl going wrong time.....middle of our hol.well for me next uni degree?sucks.......miss all the chance...i need a car.My uncle lend me his z3 he bound to kick my ass........rent one...clothes????clothes well g2000 not bad.I kinda in dilemma to go or not?????

Watever....Scram

Seeing my fren's feelings.Remind my foolish past....

i dunnoe why? ur smile is so pain?

Why?i try to approach as a fren.Nth in return

Who think u r? A bitch rite?

watever.....ur words r lies.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

I have a crush on someone today.

Early in the morning...in the class...i saw her well i feel sumthing different bout her.Is it her hair or her smile......heck i dunnoe....she bit remind of other her........maybe tat......gloomy me....

I still the sucker she wan me to be.....

Well April 2nd is near....sucks....i had to motiviated myself to concencrate.today i saw her pics.wao it crush me tat i miss her smile so badly.hear her voice again.......life sucks.Confucious is right be happy wit the girl u have rather than the girl u dun have.Bleeding in live....well no such thing.April 2nd i begin to hate it.If i only to be brave n confidence wit myself,no use to talk bout the past.Life is a journey not a destination a lot things for me to learn.In the end she treat me like this, i realize i learn about feelings.In the future we shall meet again if fate smile upon me.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Leona Lewis

Heck i have a small crush wit leona lewis....plus beyonce n tyra banks.....plus i attracted to african tall women.they muz have sumthing.A porsche cayman.johnanthan dude no money la if got i wont come to study help.i will be in singapore chilling.........today my econs class there sum fucker indian ...bloody bastard go die better.......so annoying n like to show off.He juz make a fool of himself in stats...by showing off in copying wat carmen said.Useless la.Leona Lewis...well if i going uk i might have a chance.Try to ask kim out...seem this weekend she have a date.U guys muz noe who liao.i bet 100 bucks is tat guy.I try to imagine...cant be kut.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Phew

I had dropped my physics like on last friday.Wao i feel stress free.Physics sound heavy.....i got enough to concencrate on my econs for now.My result juz released yesterday not so good.Quite dissapointed wit econs.I dunnoe which idiot say ez....ur language muz be strong...i guess they dun understand wat i wrote.Bloody cocky brits examiners!

Last friday oh ya there is a charity auction going on...it quite.Its kinda tat A52 batch quite motivated n outspoken...not bad.A lot of lengluis too....ciz i wan to bet a leng lui some guy straight away 100 bucks.Muz be lonely despreate for one. Oh god...i saw one catch my eye......she tall sophiscated and i can tell she like blacks.I love woman who love black......still wao look at me...i didn't have a porsche or a beamer.....i hope my mum approve a 30 thousand beamer.Not bad......but in the end i wish to see tat someone again to smile at me n say goodbye.Kinda miss her but not strong as the feeling slowly faded.I dun understand why she can be friends wit me anymore....haiz i am a sucker.

My aunt going to move soon.The house is going leave to me alone or maybe wit my cousin.Anyway wao a huge responsiblities.Australia study there hmmm????i hope not monaash.Mel uni surfing at the beach everyday wit a rented house at st kilda beach not bad.Far from uni.I not sure my choices...uk too exp...i hope reccession prolong causing pound to be more deappreciated......well i better get back to gym now.If u guys wan gym call me i give free one day trial for fitness first.I better get fit from prom>i hope my mum give me a lot cash for suits n cars.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

13th Febuary

No wonder i feel so gloomy yesterday.....it was 13th Feb.Onli some of u understand why 13th Feb n those some of u noe why 16th feb maybe suckiest day of my life.......haih...valentine day...love in the air.....today is my cousin, Arafat birthday...Happy brithday man......i miss someone so badly but i still dun understand WHY?....why i still got mixed feeling....i try to see another ppl still......u still there......is it my curse?Had karma get back on me?I think too far.

I have insomania lately.....i cant stop..........why?i try think another stuff...still u r there.Who r u?wat r u?Y u into my life?I afraid i still like u after all tis while.But this feeling of like sucks!

Dude ,Mr pilot i noe u still lover her...dun be a phony by saying spread rumours u dun like her.U talk cock to us onli...dun annoyed me...mr pilot...for ur action tell us who r u....u noe wat...wat can win her heart honesty...u too fake tat y she can see u.I pity u.

14th Feb a long day for me......well i better get going to buy my cousin present then.chow

Friday, February 8, 2008

I have touch reality finally.

When i finally touch reality....by then the sun already set at the mountain........so it all true....still day dreaming am i?

I truly live the past forever....for i fear reality.........i see the it wit my own eyes.....ur words......ur expression.Hmmmm....well i can see through the lies......i dunnoe wat it is.....she make me helpless as child......wat power she had.

All men weak coz of women.

Lies......human nature..........well there always her eyes show sumthing different......women like her...bah....open ur eyes n see the world.

Reality...i wan to do sumthing better wit my life.....the world well so big tat we can anyone in it yet so small unexpected coz i am still guessing.

Friday, February 1, 2008

I too inthoughtful....crappy...immature...my vices.

Nah i muz be the most selfish ppl in the world.So stingy weirdo i am......haih too self centre....why?i hardly notice ppl's needs.I too arrogant all the time.....haih.....i love to crap for no reason.

Too inthoughtful n insensitive.Of course i not the person u thought i were.......i dun believe u poor at analyst at ppl. I perhaps wellllllllll.......juz like some weirdo.......

I should touch reality more often face the truth rather than some dude staring at screen all day lifeless...................so sad....dunnoe myself sumtimes.

i should see some therapists for treatment perhaps.I'm too spoiled n pampered.Mean sarcastic person i am................haiz too much vices.

" PINK ! "

Pink maybe my new colour.I noe wat u think.....crappy henry try to be sensitive n gay rite now.

Pink is my new obsession.........pink is my new favourite colour..........pink is my new lover......pink is always my love........yet pink i love so much.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Starbucks brews $1 cup of coffee.

I heard read this article from BBC about starbucks able to enter cheap coffee market.Wat the $^%$...wit 1 dollar coffee, they able to monopolize the market. It so american, i dun wish to go Italy or France at it small cafe sipping starbucks coffee.All this franchises destroy foundation of creative ideas of exotic delicious beverage n food.I assume malaysia cheapest starbucks will cost 3 or 4 sumthing after they added their cheapest to the menu.....oh god......sob..sob i going to miss my favourite cafes.They truly use the economics of scale by using purchasing power.Well kiss french n italian cafe good bye....i going to miss u guys. I wonder how they manage.....franchise restaurants n cafes rule the industry.NO way, where can.To be frank, starbucks is nth.Aus they prefer the small italian cafes.French n italian prefer their own.Not cheap or wat.We prefer ppl personal brew our coffee.I love the hot coffee smell in the morning...speaking of coffee...i have to go n drink...long time liao.I support genuine rather brand names.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Sweeney Todd The Demon Barber

The movie is quite not i expected so much blood shed....cannibalism.Bloody bitch lie bout the wife's death.Should i cut to the ending...nah i dun wan to spoilt ur mood.The movie story kinda almost same The Novel " The Count of Monte Crisco" by Alexander Dumas.Almost the same.......its quite interesting the movie......tyhe ending is so sad.Well Felicia n Elaine will listen the song i going to sing everyday.Tat go wit ah seng...i noe he will kick my ass.Cum on i am waiting for u.

Today well my fren intro us to this girl.I like this kind girl's attitude.Kinda rock n roll attidude.I love rock n roll n from the jucebox baby..I noe someone will said oh my god here we go again......i like cocky n mean girls.i dunnoe why.I imagine in my married years.I will be the one wearing the apron wrote there papa kitchen.Come on u guys.......be the new age guys.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Ugly ppl blog

Wao so fast 14 of jan.Wao next month is 14 Feb Valentine Day.Well i going solo wit blackie liao.My cousin birthday...oh well wat to give him huh?A shirt n wat kind shit wait til then onli decide.........I hearf fish going to Monaash.Media degree n psychology sumthing...ummm fish i dun understand why u always wan to change course?I thought u into business.

Nvm tat sucks la tomolo stats n then physics....oh god........about the girl i miss ...some of u thought is fish.Oh well u r wrong.The girl well onli few of the guys noe n one or two girls nia....hehe ........wat for i tell......Ah seng said hey not good looking but have good personalities.Come think of relationship....i dun like commitment.....i dun noe write wat crap else.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Oh No!!!Bloody $%#$%$%....Its here til 22nd jan......You going to miss me when i gone more like i going to miss u when i gone.

External exam is here...so fast jan d....well i have my first two papers C1 & C2 maths.C1 maths quite complicated well C2 maths quite ez.Should study more on C1.....But anyway how i had to concencrate my next exam stats...continue bloody ohysics n econs n c3 maths.Oh god...three days streak remind me of SPM.I suddenly miss my school years.Oh well "let bygones be bygones"After the basic maths exam on wed nite, i back at my aunt's home.I watch this show called " boston legal",got this part about this immigrant n his son from Senegal try to find hope n dream in the land of oppurnity.Well His son got mugged n get shot n died....the dad try to charge the assailant but still assailant win the case.....Instead the dad saw this dude in his bus n take his own personal revenge by hitting this dude.Wow...in the end the dude charge the dad for hitting him.i was like thinking, if tat was my son who was shot by this MF, i would beat the crap out him....god sake...now we living in the world of evil always win......Weird wolrd..it so sad the father n son came to America for hope n dream of a better life..n his son get shot n get charge by court.Wow tat sucks.America the land oppurnity more like gang bang place.Africa god forsaking place ravage by war.......caused by greed n hatred.I saw this part of blood diamond in the history channel,this baby his feet get mutilated n crawling around the place.It sick n sad....why ????Should we kill our own brothers for diamonds tat use to trade wit the superpowers for more weapons.( i noe one of my dreams is to be professional arms dealer.)It shit to think bout it to kill for diamonds..in rwanda ppl get killed for being tat race.I saw this part ,this girl begging for mercy tat she wont be tutsi anymore coz she dun wan to be killed.Why we must kill ppl again for ?For wat ????Its shit anyway.

22nd exam ends....tat fast i going to 2nd Sem......I noe this world got a kind of ppl who like spy ppl for stupid reason.I noe tat very low n i think i maybe one of them....well i not tat sick......i dun understand why?go ahead... i dun care.Help Jan batch i cant keep my eyes closed for a sec, leng lui is everywhere.I noe tat sick.LOL.

Hey can us be friends again?I mean like juz tat small thing wit other guy is not concern bout ur matters.Juz tat its his attidude i bengang rite now.....I sumtimes tak boleh tahan da.Sorry if i do anything..i not heart broken n why should i?Juz frens k?

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

I so so dissapointed.First post of 2008.

Seeing u well, i dun like the word " attraction",i am a fool to thinking tat i could love u.I heard u speak, see u in the wicked smile......well i so dissapointed.I miss the old u, i seeing things tat remind me of the old u...i sick coz i not okay, i so hurt.......tat nite the view so beautiful from here....i can't see u in it.It not rite tat make me realize tat wat can i do anymore. I feel emptyness again wit resentment.

Last nite, we have some great time....beer.Shit u turborg n carlsberg there one difference the price.Bloody hell,the dude recommend me some shit.I saw yong bin n they last nite. Some of ibrahims well r outgoing.....hard to find this species in the school.I going off on the 3rd.well so fast.to kl....oh god no car....i hope have a chance to ride the range rover.Cun Cun very beautiful.....well

I going to miss u guys....back to eddie n they all in kl liao.

Words come n go blew away by the wind,
For Time stopped for memories are forever,
Neither strong waves or the hottest sun,
shall i ever leave u guys alone to face the peril,
nay i shall stay for we happy band of brothers.( ermmm include some girls)