I Miss U so much.

Hey Gramps.....it have been almost a month since i got the news bout ur surgery.When i got news, i thought u able to pull it throught like u always have.When i reached the hospital, i was shocked tat Aunty Tracy, Uncle Freddie and grandma was crying.I knew sumthing worse have came up.....when i gotta into the room.Seeing ur condition like tat, well i was shocked.I remember wat diease u ever get...u able to pull it throught.It seem tat my invicible gong gong succumb to death.Seeing my cousin, Arafat n my Aunty Julia in the room try to hold back the tears..i thought he have hopes left.When the doc declare he is brain death there no chance.......i was.....my only regrets is not able to spend more time wit u grandpa.Popo can't accept tat u r gone....so come to worst tat we have to pull the plug.Still i wish i able to talk to u at the last moment......At ur house in Alor Star, on ur death bed the last breath pain me in my memories.I dun wan to see u gone juz like tat.

I always thought u able to live for a long time due to ur good health.Well u go too fast for us to say goodbye.Guess this life...there always the unexpected.Some of ur frens came n dun believe tat u gone so fast.As u always smile...always strong n speak wit a strong manner.I won't forget wat u had taught me.I shall remember n i won't let u to be dissapointed.

Since back at KL, at Mandarin Oriental's ur favourite chinese res and ur favourite peking duck........its wont be the same without u.U always lecture the way my hair, my clothes n my lifestyle.Then i suddenly realized wat u mean.....now i understand wat made man remember or to appreciate its by deceisive event.

I can see in grandma's eyes how much tat she love u.How much tat u care bout the family n love it.When i lost u grandpa, i feel there no hero in my life.