I Miss U so much.

Hey Gramps.....it have been almost a month since i got the news bout ur surgery.When i got news, i thought u able to pull it throught like u always have.When i reached the hospital, i was shocked tat Aunty Tracy, Uncle Freddie and grandma was crying.I knew sumthing worse have came up.....when i gotta into the room.Seeing ur condition like tat, well i was shocked.I remember wat diease u ever get...u able to pull it throught.It seem tat my invicible gong gong succumb to death.Seeing my cousin, Arafat n my Aunty Julia in the room try to hold back the tears..i thought he have hopes left.When the doc declare he is brain death there no chance.......i was.....my only regrets is not able to spend more time wit u grandpa.Popo can't accept tat u r gone....so come to worst tat we have to pull the plug.Still i wish i able to talk to u at the last moment......At ur house in Alor Star, on ur death bed the last breath pain me in my memories.I dun wan to see u gone juz like tat.

I always thought u able to live for a long time due to ur good health.Well u go too fast for us to say goodbye.Guess this life...there always the unexpected.Some of ur frens came n dun believe tat u gone so fast.As u always smile...always strong n speak wit a strong manner.I won't forget wat u had taught me.I shall remember n i won't let u to be dissapointed.

Since back at KL, at Mandarin Oriental's ur favourite chinese res and ur favourite peking duck........its wont be the same without u.U always lecture the way my hair, my clothes n my lifestyle.Then i suddenly realized wat u mean.....now i understand wat made man remember or to appreciate its by deceisive event.

I can see in grandma's eyes how much tat she love u.How much tat u care bout the family n love it.When i lost u grandpa, i feel there no hero in my life.

Ballnight

Ballnight is on 30th june....kl sentral hilton 130 per ticket.At least i believe my cousin's years is cheaper.Damn exp n hardly ppl going wrong time.....middle of our hol.well for me next uni degree?sucks.......miss all the chance...i need a car.My uncle lend me his z3 he bound to kick my ass........rent one...clothes????clothes well g2000 not bad.I kinda in dilemma to go or not?????

Watever....Scram

Seeing my fren's feelings.Remind my foolish past....

i dunnoe why? ur smile is so pain?

Why?i try to approach as a fren.Nth in return

Who think u r? A bitch rite?

watever.....ur words r lies.

I have a crush on someone today.

Early in the morning...in the class...i saw her well i feel sumthing different bout her.Is it her hair or her smile......heck i dunnoe....she bit remind of other her........maybe tat......gloomy me....

I still the sucker she wan me to be.....

Well April 2nd is near....sucks....i had to motiviated myself to concencrate.today i saw her pics.wao it crush me tat i miss her smile so badly.hear her voice again.......life sucks.Confucious is right be happy wit the girl u have rather than the girl u dun have.Bleeding in live....well no such thing.April 2nd i begin to hate it.If i only to be brave n confidence wit myself,no use to talk bout the past.Life is a journey not a destination a lot things for me to learn.In the end she treat me like this, i realize i learn about feelings.In the future we shall meet again if fate smile upon me.

Leona Lewis

Heck i have a small crush wit leona lewis....plus beyonce n tyra banks.....plus i attracted to african tall women.they muz have sumthing.A porsche cayman.johnanthan dude no money la if got i wont come to study help.i will be in singapore chilling.........today my econs class there sum fucker indian ...bloody bastard go die better.......so annoying n like to show off.He juz make a fool of himself in stats...by showing off in copying wat carmen said.Useless la.Leona Lewis...well if i going uk i might have a chance.Try to ask kim out...seem this weekend she have a date.U guys muz noe who liao.i bet 100 bucks is tat guy.I try to imagine...cant be kut.

Phew

I had dropped my physics like on last friday.Wao i feel stress free.Physics sound heavy.....i got enough to concencrate on my econs for now.My result juz released yesterday not so good.Quite dissapointed wit econs.I dunnoe which idiot say ez....ur language muz be strong...i guess they dun understand wat i wrote.Bloody cocky brits examiners!

Last friday oh ya there is a charity auction going on...it quite.Its kinda tat A52 batch quite motivated n outspoken...not bad.A lot of lengluis too....ciz i wan to bet a leng lui some guy straight away 100 bucks.Muz be lonely despreate for one. Oh god...i saw one catch my eye......she tall sophiscated and i can tell she like blacks.I love woman who love black......still wao look at me...i didn't have a porsche or a beamer.....i hope my mum approve a 30 thousand beamer.Not bad......but in the end i wish to see tat someone again to smile at me n say goodbye.Kinda miss her but not strong as the feeling slowly faded.I dun understand why she can be friends wit me anymore....haiz i am a sucker.

My aunt going to move soon.The house is going leave to me alone or maybe wit my cousin.Anyway wao a huge responsiblities.Australia study there hmmm????i hope not monaash.Mel uni surfing at the beach everyday wit a rented house at st kilda beach not bad.Far from uni.I not sure my choices...uk too exp...i hope reccession prolong causing pound to be more deappreciated......well i better get back to gym now.If u guys wan gym call me i give free one day trial for fitness first.I better get fit from prom>i hope my mum give me a lot cash for suits n cars.