Frustration

Well, those who close with me will understand what dilemma that i facing now.
I feel weak for once and unsecure bout the future. I hit myself that back to reality. I seriously to make magic happen again. I had to be desprate, risk-taker and fiecre if i want to secure myself. I don't believe it why good things always follow by bad things. Guess my past life owe him a lot. I would rather go there but how i going to cope when i am there. Follow my uncle's bold move perhaps? Too bold, for his time is different. But i will fight to the end and Nth will stop, ur words of cowardice doesn't scare me. Still sumtimes i feel i muz realize reality but i will fight for my own destiny.